its official

....i am graduating on saturday :)
i am enrolled at NWOSU as a psych major
i am NOT taking summer classes lol
i should be studying algebra right now
i had a really bad day yesterday
i lived :)
i am surrounded by positive vibes and love
i am on my 4th cup of coffee and its 5am
i miss rick...
i wont see him again until maybe graduation
i am an extremely lucky girl
i am proud of my kids...they are amazing little people
i found shoes to go with my grad dress....now to accessorize!
i believe in the power of prayer and caffeine
i have made some awesome new friends this year...i missed doing that for a long time
i think its time for another cup...

 

me and my guy hanging out :)
its been awhile since i posted....ive been crazy busy...i say that and some ppl just dont get that. my days are scheduled down to the 30 min mark. i work full time go to school over full time...ive got great friends and some family help but otherwise i do it on my own. and im fiercely proud of that. this guy has been my rock...my supporter and cheerleader thru all of the nonsense. hes my voice of reason when i jump off the deep end. hes my guy :)

i should grad in may. i cant tell you how excited i am. i fought hard for this. even though its only a 2 yr degree its something i started...and finished. so far this semester ive got all As too...thatll change tomorrow when i take my first algebra test lol. kids are doing great. phoebe is going to be in her first recital in june EEEEK! and marek is still into boyscouts and video games. i look forward to this spring and summer, getting them both outside for some bbq and swimming and maybe goin to the lake with my guy :)

not much else to report...work sucks, schools hard, life is beautiful :) the end

a patch of the pumpkin variety

 

 

 

kids had fun running amuk at the pumpkin patch this year....brad paid for them to each pick out their own pumpkin to carve...pretty cool :)

my new obsession...

gag

WTF?!?!?!? nothing is sacred anymore....i guess "THEY" have decided to give rainbow brite a makeover...make her and her friends taller and skinnier and IMO SLUTTIER!!! you know i get that things need a refresher every now and again...but COME ON!!! as a mother of a little girl im just appalled at the images i see pushed onto her visually every day. dora used to be a great program..for some crazy reason they decided to make her a teenager and make her like boys and crap. GAH....brad said something the other day that just annoyed me to death...(SHOCKER i know) he said phoebe had several little boyfriends at school and he would like her to pick just one instead of having so many. for starters SHES ONLY FOUR!!! "boyfriends" shouldnt even be a word that she thinks about...they are just friends that are boys...this is a prb with our society...sexualizing our children at a extremely young age....and we wonder why they have warped views on relationships and body image and sex. marek told me he had a girlfriend the other day...i told him he could do much better than that. hes only in second grade. dont get me wrong....i remember being boy crazy when i was little...maybe if i had focused more on myself and what i wanted and my career i wouldnt have to work so hard today. they should be thinking about what color to paint their suncatchers...not worried about how to snag a guy or land a girlfriend....ok i think im done ranting for the day :)

is this thing still on???

ok so ya its been awhile...to say the least....ive been completely swamped with daily life and just havent made blogging a priority...got bigger fish to fry on the daily:) so anywho...the pix above are what the kids what to be for halloween. phoebe wants to be princess peach-unfortunately they do NOT make a costume for young girls that dont want to be slutty. so i got a barbie princess dress and am attempting to make it look like this-sorta. hey people dont hold your breath im not a miracle worker :) itll be pink and fruffy thats all i got lol. had to actually purchase mareks costume this year...sad sad sad....just dont have the time to donate to hand making both this year. oh well ive got to do what i got to do :)

on a lighter note...got the halloween party organized for mareks class...think im gonna miss it though bc of work. made a 100 on my business ethics paper. ya i rocked it. got a cable for my camera (thank you KAREN) now i can upload all kinds of pix of the kids and our adventures just like i used to.

the last few months have been the craziest worst best most awesome months i think. i was accused of grand theft auto and witchcraft in the same week. (by two different people...lets just get that straight lol) kids have been pretty awesome with a few bumps in the road along the way....which is to be expected.

i hope to be able to blog a bit more ill keep ya posted on that though lol

....and so it begins....

 

miss phoebes first day of dance class was on monday....her tiny little shoes and tiny little leotard ....just made my heart melt! and i love this pic,,,,doesnt she just look like a little dancer already?

really theres just been alot going on lately...i made a B on my social problems test (yeah me!) and im sweating my soc psych test results...i dont think its fair to test someone on theories of psychology when theyre all hyped up on dayquil and a vanilla doubleshot! i mean really....
phoebes bday party is next week...had to get help from brad to do the invites...couldnt figure out gimp...and ive learned to delegate :) ive got her cake worked out in my head so lets just hope it turns out ok
her theme this year is hamtaro...ya im SURE youve heard of it lol thats the cute little hamster pictured above :) after this its on to tackle the halloween costumes
and after brad told me today that marek wanted to be METAKNIGHT and not mennonite i think ive got my work cut out for me lol...for a minute there i thought he wanted to be amish for halloween!

some days

you just wish you could call in to life and take a sick day ... like today.

i think my face melted off....

ya so the new madonna single...i loves it!!! you should def try to watch the video...couldnt find a good one to upload but heres the song :) she totally rocked it and i would seriously do some major damage to get those boots she was wearing in that video! KILLA

post secret hits home

ya its easier said than done i think....

electro-luv

Felix Da Housecat - We All Wanna Be Prince


this is FELIX DA HOUSECAT!! mega prince overload....been listening to alot of his stuff lately..thought this was just too cute :)

the kindness of not -so-strangers

thats what ive been experiencing lately. its knocked all the bad stuff out of the water. everytime some frustrating issue arises....one of my friends is always there with a helping hand or a shoulder to cry on (or an ear to bitch in !!) its amazing how many people actually take time out of their life to help me out. chasie letting me crash at her place so many nites im surprised she didnt charge me rent..and being a sympathetic ear to boot, julie for giving me daily injections of JESUS lol, imelda for giving me approval :) and for helping me move and letting me buy 2 of the most comfy couches ever made, diane---well shes like the older sister i never had...not that much older though :) as marek calls her CRAZY DIANE! haha but shes been my sounding board and my getaway when i needed it. i will miss her terribly when shes gone :( all the boys and their "band luv" lol i truly feel like i am surrounded by good vibes. sometimes i just have to remind myself to "enjoy the happiness".

im a horrible person

....apparently. lol there has been alot of negativity surrounding issues in my life recently...and no matter how hard i try to say it doesnt bother me-it does. it bothers me when someone calls me names like a 12 yr old. i think its sad. they wasted all that energy on a horrible person like me :) i am a good mom...bottom line. anyone who knows me knows that. they are my first and foremost concern. and its not my job to watch out for other peoples feelings in regards to my kids safety and well being. if i gotta step on some toes for me to make sure that my children arent exposed to certain language or actions i feel are inappropriate then i obviously have no problem with that :) and i will not apologize for it either. everytime i say this is the last time im going to address this...because honestly i have built my bridge long ago. ive moved on...its a total NON issue for me. but when people cannot seem to let stuff go i think its kinda creepy actually :) but for reals this time. THIS IS THE LAST TIME....i realize i cannot control things people say or do or think. im not trying to change minds because at this point everyone has already picked sides. its just petty and crazy for others to involve themselves so deeply in the workings of such a horrible person like myself. people that live with love have no hatred in thier voice.

first day jitters

 

got all of mareks school supplies together...met his teacher last nite...she seems very nice. and ya i couldnt resist and i said i wouldnt do it again esp since im going back to school full time and working full time but ya im homeroom mom :) itll be ok...right? marek got up this morning and told me his tummy was upset...then he puked lol so im thinking its a case of first day nervous tummy....i always had that when i was little. :) nothing a little 7up and TLC wont cure!

ya so school for marek starts on wed....S C A R Y!!! hell be a second grader :) i wrote his name on all his supplies this morning.open house is tonite...i thought i had my data cable for my camera...but it turned out to be the one for brads blackberry...so that isnt going to work...im hoping to borrow one so i can upload some pix off my camera...i havent taken any of the new apt.,..and id like to have a clean card for all the kids upcoming events :)
got to hang out with some of my awesome friends this weekend...bbq-n sittin by their pool watchin all their kids play...venting about work :) it was the most fun id had in awhile :) there were like 8 ppl from the bakery and NOT ONE CAKE in site !!!! it was awesome! lol
phoebe and i start school up again next week. im kinda nervous but really excited--i start my day off with a class called SOCIAL PROBLEMS...who WOULDNT be excited about that??!?!
as my pal julie would say ...listen here girlfriend...thats chapter 32 in our book. haha (love that firl to pieces) oh and wilma i havent forgotten about you and our special bond over corky :) who looks better in a dress than some girls i know!!! :)

adventures in electronics

so im learning how to do alot of things on my own...im so used to delegating all the stuff i dont know how to do or just cant deal with. well thats not an option anymore :) i was so incredibly proud of myself when i converted my dryer plug. i felt like i was a flippin genius!!! haha anyway brad let us take the wii home for the next few days. which is really cool cuz i cant afford cable right now (man school clothes are expensive!! lol) ....anyway i dont have a power strip to plug the tv dvd player and wii into so i gotta unplug and plug in stuff as i need it. well we watched our hello kitty movie this morning and marek wanted to play the wii...had to unplug and plug...and the tv wouldnt turn back on.....PANIC ensues....no tv no tv no tv,....AAAHHHHHH!!! lol what the heck am i gonna do?!?!?!? so a few deep breaths later and i just had to step back and think...made the kids function without noise for a min...coloring books are great :) thought id give it one more try...the tv is like 10yrs old...its been moved....it could just not turn back on and id have to figure out how the heck im gonna get another tv...so lets just not go there! went to look and i didnt even have the stupid thing plugged in.....
so i think its time for some coffee now :) cuz im REALLY feeling like a genius....

a change of focus

im tired of focusing on all the changes going on in my life. its consuming and chaotic lol. soooo i found this little project and thought it was kinda cool.

its called the uniform project. she has vowed to wear the same dress everyday for 1 yr to bring awareness and raise funds for schools in india. pretty neat idea :)

changes

so im getting settled in my new place...got some pictures hung up and its starting to have a familiar feel. this weekend was the first without the kids...it was quiet. thats pretty much the only word that echoed thru my head.not a good quiet or a bad quiet just quiet in general. im trying to focus on the positive...look at how much time ill have to get stuff done?!! i still have a TON of stuff to take care of but just thought id update :) im hoping to post some pix of the new place soon...cant seem to find my cable to hook up my camera :) the joys of moving haha

weird and interesting stuff

Michael Jackson -- #7

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veils are funny

When wrong people leave your life...wrong things stop happening


i couldnt agree more :)

just a quick note

just wanted to say thanks to all my friends....you really dont know how much all your support and encouraging words have meant to me during all of this. so a big THANK YOU!!!

something kinda fun

this looked like something fun to do for the kids on the fourth...ill be working and brad will have them most of the day but i thought id try to do some fun stuff with them that nite...maybe some sparklers and snocones and these...gotta spoil em every once in awhile right? :) ive been super crazy chaotic busy with school and other dramatic stuff. ended up with a 95 in my lit class (not bad for being out of school for like a decade) and i think so far im getting a solid B in my bio class...two weeks and 2 more days...im tellin ya its almost killin me! haha

mini freak out

so i was driving back from clara's dance recital late in the nite and i was listening to the crappy remixes some of the radio stations play so they can sound like "hip club music djs" lol anyway i heard this OLD jam circling in the background and when they dropped it i almost lost my freakin MIND. im thoroughly glad i was like the only person on the road bc i think pple wouldve called 911 if they had heard me scream like i did :) its old and corny....but has sooo many good memories attached to it and i love it anyway...kinda like my ten cent nut basket i found at hope outreach. no one understands why i love it---but i just do.

marek started baseball and hes doing really well. my parents are actually showing up to his games. i have mixed emotions about that but im glad theyre there for him. ill have to post pics later...

phoebes tooth still looks gross, and i guess if its bruised like we think it is itll look like that for awhile :( hopefully eventually itll turn back its normal color

school is going really well...this is the last week of my lit class and ive got a 95 average. i only have one more paper to write WOOHOO!! my bio class is MIND NUMBING!!! im really not learning anything,,,just trying to retain things long enough to test on them and pass. crappy i know but dang! hes not really teaching anything anyway. just definitions FOR 3 HOURS EVERY DAY!!! but i argued my B on my last test to an A so yeah me! haha

got a few things in the works..life is pretty crazy right now but i hang onto the small pieces of good that i can find. good music good friends...shoulders to cry on and the occasional drink :)

zoom!

so my life is gettin crazier and crazier. vbs was last week---didnt get home b4 7pm at all. and this week marek starts leonardos summer camp AND his first baseball game is tonite at 6. i get off work at 5 and gotta pick up both kids. taxi mom to the rescue! haha this week is the last week of my lit class thank GOD! it wasnt hard but writing 2 papers a week was getting kinda old :) i should be getting my bio test back today--well see how i did. phoebes busted tooth isnt looking any worse so maybe just maybe weve dodged a bullet there.

i think i need an 18 hr nap.....

big day

today is my first day of biology. gotta be there at 730am....ya im the smart one right? haha this goes every day for 6 wks. im feeling kinda yucky today. too much stress right now prb doesnt help that issue. marek started baseball last week and his coach was less than enthused to be there....so well have to fill in the gaps i guess. marek's really excited though--and im so proud how fast hes picking up the basics! well off to school i go!! :)

pretty proud of myself!

so i wrote and turned in my 2 papers for my lit class this weekend. it was ALOT harder than i remember...i used to be able to pull papers out of thin air 30 min b4 they were due and ace them. but i wanted to make sure i did a good job this time around ESPECIALLY since i havent written a paper in like ohhh a DECADE!!! :)

i thought i prb racked up a C at best...figured it could just be a learning experience and figure out what she was looking for etc.

got my grades back today....i got a 95 on my first paper and a effn 100 on the second!!!!!!
talk about boosting my ego...i guess im not a dummy after all :) jk

oh and another lesson ive learned...if some random guy comes up and asks you where the bathroom is..and you tell him..and thats the END OF THE CONVERSATION!! BEWARE!!! he can misconstrue the entire situation to his friend and THATS HOW RUMORS GET STARTED...so in short i will no longer be nice and tell strangers where things are at :)

and the winner is...

i picked this one...it got chasie's approval :) now lets just hope my ass isnt too big for it! haha....my first day of school was monday--took me 2+hrs to log in..had to ask brad for help (which i hated doing) but thats something im working on...asking for help when needed. i just wanna give a HUGE shout out to my close circle of friends. for being supportive and just what friends should be :) and i really mean it when i say "thanks..i needed that!"

anyway i already have 2 papers due --- so much for my summer vacay :( the end result will be SOOOOOO worth it though!
oh and i SWEAR if i have to make another graduation cake im gonna SCREAM!!! (and yes i KNOW how to spell congratulations..and the shortened version CONGRATS!---apparently some people think i need help with that haha )

oh and diane...im lookin for a family guy clip for ya...its just gonna take a minute :)

phoebe's program

her program was last week. she walked across the stage and waved to all of us like she was miss america :) sometimes i think her personality is bigger than she is.

dress shopping

ok so im in chasie's wedding this summer. woo-hoo! shes such a cool chick. anyway, im supposed to find a fun dress to wear. colorful (ya i do that so well right...my closet is a choice of shades of black) ANYWAY i found these on forever 21. i KNOW the last 2 are black BUT they are really cute and i could punch up the color in the shoes or something right?!
im diggin the 1st one too...that color is just kickass! hmmm got about another 6 wks to figure it out for sure though...and did i mention im doin the cake ACK!!! :)

yes virginia...

there really IS a coffee shop in heaven :)
whew! i was REALLY worried about that haha

its graduation season...nuff said....