i luv parties

it used to be "i love to go to parties". The kind where the bass would vibrate anything that wasnt tied down-flashy lights-abandoned warehouses-sketchy people. those kind. NOW it the kind that involve cake pans and wilton icing colors. balloons streamers and fun curly ribbon! (isnt it crazy how much kids change your pov?) im having a ctmh party today and i was worried about what we are gonna eat and drink! btw its gingerbread cake with cream cheese icing...couldnt think of anything fun to drink (that didnt involve vodka!) so were just drinkin coke and water. but the main event is phoebe's first birthday party. Im not sure when exactly i lost control and started planning birtday parties MONTHS in advance. i know it wasnt mareks first party (although you can see symptoms of extreme OCD in the pictures of the table) but now its just way out of control. NOW i make all of my kids birthday cakes and most of the decorations myself (who needs hallmark right?) Everything is theme related. cookies punch cake even the wrapping paper and presents are theme related (my son turns 5 in january and i already have his superman party planned!) whats wrong with me?? why do i obsess over events that may never be remembered? i guess its bc i always wanted parties like this...and i had a few (my favorite was the one we had at the Eagle Arcade...anyone remember that?) and maybe its bc i want my children to know that their birthday is their special day. and that its special to me too. the day they came into my life and changed it forever. wow now im getting teary :) im sure ill post pix of the glorious event (sept 23rd) ill enlist the help of the midnite birthday squad (just me and cammeron...some squad huh?) this week ill be really busy with last minute touch ups. so i prb wont blog much...not that youll miss me or anything (my 4 readers!) and next weekend is my giant crop (3 days of scrappin fun!) and then ill be totally busy the whole week b4...just know that every nite ill be up til midnite stuffing goodie bags and wondering if my wrapping paper matches my table decorations well enough...and how the HELL am i gonna make my homemade birthday banner look the way it does in my head??
so ta-ta for now