today was a bad day

my grandpa had a stroke yesterday. he cant move his left side (face arm leg) . those are the facts. what i wasnt expecting today was to see my grandpa as a husband. as my grandma's partner in crime. i dont know if i can totally put into words what i saw today. i was ready to see all the tubes and blood and gore--i can handle that . the flood of emotion was what caught me off guard. my grandma loves him and depends on him so much and i saw the pillar of my family fall to pieces today. he was scared. he was afraid. the way they touched each other and the things they said to each other made me view life in a new way. theyll be married for 55 years in august. and even though hes had heart trouble these past few months there was no doubt in my mind that he would soar thru all of that and make it to their 60th anniversary. now i have doubts. these people are my rock...the reason im a sane individual (some people would doubt the sane part). i know this is kinda a rambling thing but i just needed to commend them, both of them for their dedication to family and the love that they share. ive never seen him cry. and today he did--in front of me. i helped wipe the blood off of his face and held his hand when he needed it. i was his voice when he had none--it couldve been so much worse...it just made me fast forward in my life 45 years...is this how its gonna be with me and brad??